Yesterday sucked.  I woke up way too early, had a generally crappy morning, barely ate, didn’t exercise, had a crap day at work and killed my beloved iPod.  On top of that I went through more confused feelings with my ex over the phone.  But now I know it’s really over and I can let go.

Today is good.  I’m on top of everything at work, I ate well and I feel some semblance of my old self. 

I learned that there’s no way Future Shop will cover my iPod and they have a sensor strip in it that changes colour when exposed to water damage, but no big deal - I can get another one.  I still have a gift card at Future Shop and I was going to pick up a new game, but that can wait.  I need music more than anything.

No more talk about the past from now on.  I keep hearing that it takes 1 month per year you were together to really get over it.  We were together 7 years, so I’ve got from now until about June, 08 - just over 7 months to get my head on straight and get on the right path.  The first thing I need to do is stop and re-evaluate all of my goals and my plan for reaching them. 

To Do List - not in any particular order:

1. Review current goals and set new milestones and mini-goals for now until June 08 - this includes getting my exercise and eating plans revamped, sticking to them and recording everything faithfully
2. Let go of the past - get rid of old mementos, pictures, letters, the ring - etc.  they all have to be gone to really let go
3. No more woe is me thoughts - this happens to everyone and is just another obstacle in life to be dealt with
4. Re-arrange my room - little things to remind me that I’m in a new situation now
5. Remember blood - my family has really been there for me and I haven’t been there for them always - that needs to change
6. Remember friends - I need to remind myself that I have a lot of good friends that care about me and spend more time with them having fun
7. Make new friends - I’ve been trying to do this more lately and I’ve met some really amazing people
8. Get another iPod, quickly before I go insane
9. Open up - I’ve kept to myself and been quiet for far too long
10. Smile and laugh more
11. Get my head on straight at work - get organized and focused
12. Get my MCAD certification
13. Get my portfolio online
14. Spend more time working on my side-projects and my entrepreneurial skills
15. Spend more time with my dog and get him properly trained
16. Take better care of myself
17. Skydive, bungie-jump, snowboard, skate, travel, cook, play music, paint, game, run, get inked, cook, read, talk, explore - all of the things I want to do but haven’t been putting aside time for
18. Be aware of and appreciate every little positive thing I have in my life
19. Remember mistakes - not dwelling on them, but keeping them in mind so I never make them again
20. Regularly come back to this list - see what I’ve worked on and what I haven’t - add new things but never take anything away

 Today I made a promise to myself that I will achieve all of these things by next June.  If any of you see me shlacking off on any of this - you have full permission to slap me silly.

Finally - two songs that I listen to every day to inspire me and remind me of what I have to do:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GHlskTub90E

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fM2tVZ0UtVc

I’m smiling again today.